he created man,
Or was it
When man became lonely
he created god."
before we fall in love
there are some things i must tell you before we fall in love,
some truths i must tear out from the confines of my chest-
and you may not want to hear them all,
but if we are to share body, to share space and heart. if we are to find solace in each others flesh, seek home in the warmth and intimacy of human touch, then you must listen, and you must listen well.
1- now i am not a good person.
not always. i do not do the right thing,
and often, i am wrong.
but i am not afraid to say when i have wronged,
nor admit to making a mistake.
2- but i do not like to apologize, i do not like it all,
i do everything to avoid it. hugs and kisses and gifts.
never words of appeasement, never sullen syllables.
i expect forgiveness without requesting.
3- and i am stubborn.
i am unmabeable,
deaf, dumb and blind.
4- but i am kind.
and i dream of welcoming others into my home.
children my womb will not have carried-
and they will not look like any kids we might have,
and they may not think of us as parents,
but you must love them just as much,
or even more.
5- i am not much of a lady.
never one for heels and hairdressers,
more flats and morning mess,
but i am real.
6- and really,
i do not believe i will be much good at loving,
nor any better at being loved.
7- because i am always afraid,
but feel as though i must appear brave;
for everyone else,
a straight poker face,
and you will have to learn how to read me.
8- i do not deal well with absence,
it does not make me grow any fonder,
a slept in bed never stays warm long.
absence is a storm
i am still unable to navigate.
9- and i am jealous. possessive.
i do not like to share the ones i love.
10- i will always need time and space each day.
alone. to read, to think, to balance.
i hope i haven’t scared you away.